A Heart Belonging to Him--The Journey

I am a follower of Jesus Christ and have been since I was 14 years old. I believe in a real God who exist in 3 persons (that is a weird concept, one God 3 persons.  We will save that discussion for another day).  I believe alot of things about God.  And I have learned to believe through pursing Him, following Him, learning from Him, asking millions and yes I mean millions of questions.  Do I have all the answers to all of my questions?  No   But I still am asking.
Believing God is not always easy for me. There are days when I have such great times with God.  I seem to see Him everywhere.  I feel His presence.  I hear His voice.  I delight in His Word, the Bible.  No matter what happens on those days...nothing can seperate me from my God.  But then there are days when I don't see Him, feel Him, hear His voice and my time in His Word feels more like a distracted duty.  Everything seems to seperate me from God. I seem to doubt everything including God.  Ever been there?  The fact of the matter is God is always with me whether I feel Him or not.  I may not see Him but His eye is constantly on me.  And quite frankly, if I don't hear Him it is probably because I am not really listening.  But He is.  If I am not delighting in His Word, it is probably because I am distracted.  I am not giving Him my full attention.  It's on those days that believing is hard for me.  Not because God has changed but because in my heart I am choosing to not believe what God says and to believe my feelings instead.
I don't know where you are.  I don't even know if you know who God is?  Have ever heard of Jesus or the Holy Spirit.  If you do know God then you too are on the journey.  If you don't or are not sure then why not begin by asking God if He is really real?  Just ask.  He truly will answer if you are serious about seeking.  "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and it will be opened to you.  For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened."  (Matthew 7:7-8 ESV) If you really want to know Him you will find Him because He says you will.  He really is a lot of fun.  He is totally trustworthy.  He is faithful.  He actually means what He says.  He also does what He says He will do.  He loves unconditionally.  That means no strings attached.  He has a way of just showing up when you really need Him.  He does not work alone but he works in and through those He calls His own...that would be His family...of which I am a daughter. 
Years ago, when my youngest daughter was going through a really rought time, my dad wrote to her and asked her to look at the sunset.  He told her God painted it just for her because He wanted to see her smile.  Have you ever looked a spectacular sunset and considered that perhaps God was thinking about making you smile with the beauty of His amazing creativity?   "The heavens declare the glory of God; the skies proclaim the work of His hands." Psalm 91:1 (NIV)